Mel - you and I are unlike in so many ways. We need to have this TTC journey. It is what gets us through. And eventually through all the pain and tears we will get our BFP..............it is just going to take time. Not sure about telling my mum about TTC. I just don't think I could lie to her.

Deb - it was so good to get everything off my chest and tell my FS how I was feeling. At least he knows how I feel and I'm sure I will get a much more personal response from him in the future. I think he will be keeping a lot closer eye on my progress and informing me on important info because I'm sure he doesn't want another phone like today from me. No I am not seeing him tomorrow. I couldn't get an appointment with him all week but they were going to get him to call me tomorrow. I just couldn't wait for tomorrow and had to have answers today.

Spring - Yes I have had a chance to re-focus and see what is important to me. I have had a dream for 3 years now and I am so desperate to get that dream, that I will try as hard as I can and do whatever it takes to get there.