Sarah - Welcome to the thread, I hope you can find you gain as much strength as I do from being involved here. I have responded to other threads saying how sorry I am for the loss of your darling Jemma but I just wanted to say once more that I am sorry you are going through this
Lynn - You sound like your keeping up with that positive thinking and it is so great to see. I hope tomorrow goes ok, I am sure it will be an emotional and tiring day but at least you have "Tommysmum" there with you. You will have to let me know how it goes, I emailed Sids and Kids in Melbourne on Sunday but they still havent replied to my email But anyway, it will be good to know how you find the meetings.
Spring - Hope your day at work wasnt too tiring
Deb - Well done for giving Optus what for, I hate telephone companies with a passion! Hope the cuppa made you feel a little more relaxed... how is the TWW going anyway? I am managing to not get stressed - yet!
Tommysmum - I wouldnt worry too much about the spotting. When I was pregnant with Nicholas I found brownish coloured blood on my knickers at 5 and 1/2 weeks pg and well as you know I wasnt miscarrying, and that blood has nothing to do with me losing him at 36 weeks. I dont think your confidence levels will have an effect on the outcome of your pregnancy, I think it is natural to stress after everything we have all been through. How was Meet The Robinson? I so want to see that... I am just a big kid really
Klee - Hi, hope you are doing ok it was nice to see you pop in.
Alex - Sorry to stress you about the school holidays LOL. Hope that bleeding gives you a break soon.
Well I ended up talking about Nicholas with one of the girls I am working with. I cant even remember how, but it kind of came up and I just told her. I said I didnt want to tell everyone and she promised not to tell anyone. She was pretty sympathetic about it and all and asked if I had a photo so I showed her one and she said "wow he is very well formed for 36 weeks", that kind of through me a bit and said well yeah he was going to be born 2 weeks after he died. What did she think he was going to look like? Anyway, I really regret telling her now, I was really enjoying the whole anonymity of being there and now I just feel uncomfortable. Although it was hard to have people asking me if I had children and talking about kids and that all the time, I still managed to get through and for the most part turn a blind eye to it all. I promised myself I wouldnt talk to people about, and now I feel so angry at myself. I mean I am only working there until 18th May why couldnt I have kept my big mouth shut. If only we could undo things that have been done, I would go back and continue keeping my secret.
Anyway, just having a whinge cause I am a little annoyed at myself. Oh and thanks to you all for the support re: the psycho ex wife, it really is a huge stress in my life and it is nice to be able to get it out - DH always just says dont worry about her, your letting her win by getting upset... only a man could say that right?
But anyway, it will be good to know how you find the meetings.
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