Lynn - I am so glad you got to speak to your FS and that you are feeling positive today I am so happy you have decided to continue TTC, I didnt want to say to much so as to not try to "persuade" you but I was seriously worried about how you would cope without all the stuff, as crap and hard as it is to go through. I said after this month I was gonna give up but yeah right, like that is gonna happen - I like you rely on it! Have you decided if you tell other than you are not TTC anymore or are you just gonna leave things the way they are? I am so pleased to hear you say you are only going to worry about yourself, you are right - everyone else can look after themselves - you guys worry about each othe and dont lose sight of your dreams, and you will get there... when I dont know but persistence is the key