Danielle - hugs to you sweetie. It sounds like you are having a rough time of it. Like a few others have said, have a chat to a ABA councelor, they are great and then at least you have given it every chance possible. You are doing a fabulous job, so don't be hard on yourself. Things WILL get better, and no matter what the outcome (breasfeeding or formula) you are a wonderful mum... a bad mum would not even care.

I can't remember who asked, but I have a medala swing and it is amazing. It was recommended by some of the premmie mums I met in the special care nursery in hospital (they have to pump exclusivly so I'm guessing they would know!). The midwives also recommended it as it is the home version of the symphonies that they use in the hospitals. Also endorsed by the ABA. I had VERY sore nipples when I got home and had to pump after each feed to establish my milk, and it was very gentle.