Thanks guys, I know all of what you said including you Simone - it's just hard to remind ourselves and DH is very understanding - I know it's just me - like just automatically expecting your body to go back to normal like over night when it's taken really nearly 10months to get into the condition it's in and the trauma of having a baby let alone having complications - I just needed to be reminded that I'm not alone.

Kat - as for checking out the state of affairs down there - I've been way too scared I don't think I look after Shynelle cause I could feel how different it was so there was no way I wanted to see it - but it did go back to well almost normal but it took ages - so I hope that helps you besides where your scares proudly I reckon' that's one hell of a job pushing out a little person. BTW, I just love the pic of Lucas on your ticker - just beautiful.

Have a nice weekend everyone.
xxdd