Yep definately certifiably mad
Seriously tho it is so normal to feel/think like this, i keep thinking about #3 and i was never a "baby" person and always said 2 was it.

Nic - Alex is not doing so great...we have discovered that the vomiting is a nervous reaction to us being too tough on him and now he is barely eating at all...poor little guy i didn't realise just how sensitive a child he is dont i feel like the worst mummy ever ...we have got him taking the Incremin - cheers for the suggestion and we have taken a massive step back and trying super hard now to just keep everything calm, happy & loving...raised voices are now BANNED in our house. So hopefully in a week or 2 things will have improved if not will have to look into outside pro. help.

If any of you have any suggestions i would love to hear them or if you want to tell me off go for it