Morning Girls!

Yes i am still alive!! And still pregnant!

Had another scare again yesterday though. I thought my waters were leaking! I got out of bed at 7.30am yesterday and felt some stuff trickle out and did'nt take much notice. But then i went back too bed for half an hour and got up again and the same thing happened. After this i started getting some really painful period like pains. I called the birth suite and they asked me too go in and get checked. Had a spec done and all was good. Cervix still closed.

I am really beginning to feel like a hypercondriac!! I bet thats what the hospital thinks! Better to be safe than sorry though right.

Briley, Olwyn (MIL) and I all have the flu!! We have all been moping around the house all weekend. Poor Briley was so miserable. She was teething, had a sore hmm hmm and bum from nappy rash and had the cold. I felt so sorry for her but we managed.

Tania - Ohh hun! That would really suck. Men are so inconsiderate and selfish sometimes are'nt they. Especially when alcohol is involved. It seems to make it worse! Brent is a very selfish and inconsiderate drunk. This again was proven the last time he was home with the incident involving the "friends".

On the work front though, Brent has NEVER pressured me to go back too work. If anything its me who would kinda like to go back. He wants me to stay at home with Briley. Obviously now its not an option and i am loving the time at home with her. Maybe you should just put your foot down and tell him to (excuse the french and bluntness) GET FU**ED!!! Your an adult and should be able to make your own decisions. Especially when it comes to motherhood and caring for your child. If you would prefer to be at home looking after Jayden then so be it. Especially if Chris is earning enough money to be able to support the family.

As much as i have many problems with Brent, he has NEVER been able too tell me what to do. I make my own decisions. I think he respects me a lot because of this aswell. It does cause a few issues but its better to have your own mind than to have someone make it up for you.

I think this is cause my mum was in 2 relationships which were both mentally and phsyically abusive. She lived by my step-dads rules for 13 years and then got into another similar situation only this was physically abusive aswell. I was'nt old enough to understand the situation with my mum and my step-dad but i was in my teens when she was in the second relationship and understood clearly what was happening.

Sadly though what i did see altered my view and opinion on men in general heaps. Its kinda like i don't have any respects for them. I do but i don't IYKWIM. Like i said before i won't be told what too do by any man. Its sad though cause i do treat Brent with this attitude a fair bit. And he does'nt deserve it. Even though he mucks up a bit, he is a good man. I am lucky to have him. And visa versa.

Be strong hun. We are all here for you. And you too Christine. I know its easier said than done, but try and stand up and be your own person. I really hope you both find the strengh to do it sooner than later.

Well this has turned into a deep and meaningful has'nt it!! Its good to be able too come somewhere and really open up.

Well don't have much planned today. Just going to potter around the yard and help Brent's mum sort out there gear. The sooner we do that the sooner they will be out of the house and into the granny flat!! Terrible thing to say i know! She has been such a great help though. Been doing all the washing and looking after Briley and heaps of other stuff. My own mum would'nt do this for me!! But she works too.

Anyways, i'm raving now.

Hope you are all well! Enjoy the public holiday for all the Qld'ers.