Kimmy? How is your gastro type illness? are you still ill or on the mend? I cannot possibly imagine what it would be like to care for two young children AND have that illness ALL AT ONCE!!

Vicky - so some of what you THOUGHT was endo pain, MIGHT be back pain? Hope your medical people are onto this, get you some relief hon!

Ann - love your avatar, how cute with the BAPPLE!!! go Ella!!! you sweet thang.

bilby is in childcare RIGHT NOW - i am so nervous, she is the youngest baby there and i think with her skill levels, really belongs in the baby1 room , but for her age, she's in the baby2 room (14 mo - 2yr). the other kids are SOOO tall, can feed themselves, wear hard soled shoes and metal jewerelly, rush around so confidently. She is the only breastfed child there and also the only one in modern cloth nappies - i'm very happy the staff will use our nappies, the CCC director was so anti-MCN when i got shown thru last week.

we are still having sleepless nights. bilby might sleep for two hours after midnight, then be up again, thinking it's party time. i keep falling asleep for snatches of time, then i wake up, usually when she's latching on again. I'm too exhausted to get up and down to the cot, and if she's aware of being put in the cot, then we have an hour of screaming. but if i let her fall asleep on the bed first, i fall asleep too! and end up not transferring her! so i guess we are co-sleeping by default. i feel she's too old for it now, i worry about her falling off the bed when she wakes and i'm not awake.

Food is getting a bit better. FINALLY bilby wants whatever we're having. We're still not cooking, only heating up supermarket stuff in boxes, or toast. bilby had some fritata at my auntie's house at Easter, loved that.

hopefully a day of childcare will give me some time to get F & V into the house (first time in MONTHS) - not just a hand of bananas, and OMG there's so much i need to catch up on - this is the first time i've had a break in 16 months - filing, clothes everywhere - so much lost under the mess i'm sure - but really i think i need a nap right now.

h9ope she's ok at CC. the CCC is fine, it's just all those other BIGGER kids!!!
the choking on the food that the other kids cope with fine