kristie,thanks for letting me know about the BL.
Im so sorry for your friends M/C.what a hard time for her,she is lucky to have a great friend in you.i think it would be twice as hard to have lost twins as that is such a precious gift that not many get to be blessed with,as for the rest of your post i found it a bit hard to follow but can say only do what you and micheal feel happy and comfortable with and dont worry about what society or friends and family think because you guys are the ones who have to live in that situation and fund it,i am guessing you are feeling like this due to your prg hormones and you will start to feel better in the next few weeks as you get further into the second tri i would say.

HAPPY DUE DATE tracey!!!!!!!