Noni, I'm sorry youre not feeling well within yourself ATM. Its hard when things just aren't going the way you want them to. Do you think he's a bit depressed? I wish I had a solution for you. Glad you think you will keep going to mothers group. Soon you wont feel so shy around them.

Pregpan, glad the bum trouble is somewhat sorted LOL. Don't sweat about him not liking farex, it's horrible stuff and Paige was the only one of mine that loved eating it. I gave the other two fruit or custards for breakfast instead.

Leanne, so glad that the op went well and everything is healing well for him. Does his ear bother him ATM? it must feel a bit strange. LOL at you having a hangover, that'll teach you Definately keep doing it every month though (although maybe not so much champers)

Renee, I did have that feeling with all of mine, but with Lindsay it was ever so slightly more special because he was my first. I had these feelings of "OMG, I just gave BIRTH!" to "OMG, this is MY baby and I don't have to hand him back to anyone" I am still in awe of myself for having given birth - it never ceases to amaze me. I'm 100% supportive of you for your future births, god, I don't blame you really, you probably did get a raw deal and I would be feeling ripped off about it too.