today has been tough. i've had that feeling of needing to cry - you know the one - where everything is just bubbling below the surface. DH and i have spent a lot of time just being together in the garden (much to my disgust - used the secateurs so much i have blisters on three of my fingers!). we're not having a roast tonight - having a SC braise meal - but it smells divine anyway! am struggling to think positively today, but a lot of that is not related to the EDD - a lot of other things going on that i just can't get my head around properly - not least of which was the fact i sent a text message to my dad for his birthday, wishing him a happy birthday from us, and telling him i wouldn't ring him, as i was struggling and not in a chatty mood today - all i got back was OK. no recognition of what today means to us. it's not like they don't know - i mentioned it last week ffs! mum asked if i'd be visiting dad for his birthday and i reminded her of what today was...

i just want to thank you all for your thoughts. i will get through today, and move forward to the next transfer. i'm so very grateful to those of you who sms'd me this morning (and woke me up ) just to let me know you were thinking of us - it made a difference that i just can't put into words