Thanks for the support everyone. It is really helping - today I'm having a much better day. Don't get me wrong, still very emotionally raw and lots of tears, but I am trying to be positive - 'I choose to be happy' - and I am trying to surround myself with positive people. So far, so good.

Emmy-lou, that poem is just perfect. Sure, I break down each time I read it, but it sums up how I feel, I think! I am going to print that out and put it in my angel baby's special box. My MIL brought some flowers around today - beautiful pink rosebuds. I have taken one and am spraying it with hairspray every day to preserve it. A friend of mine did it to her wedding bouquet 5 years ago and her flowers look like porcelain. So, that perfect pink rosebud is also going in my baby's special box.

On the subject of flowers - and I don't want this to sound selfish or anything - but I feel they are starting to get a little long in the tooth. I mean, 2 weeks ago I would've really appreciated seeing them, smelling them. You know, trying to see the finer things of life - 'stop and smell the roses'.

Now, they just keep reminding me, and since realising that I am no longer blind with anguish but dull with grief, they just keep reminding me. Is that bad? I also received a beautiful arrangement from a very old friend last night. I know that she sent them out of the goodness of her heart, but they just opened up a very raw wound.

Rowie, I see your ticker is very near it's end - how are you doing???

Everyone else (sorry, no personals, I have a very bad memory!!!!!! and that poem takes up a lot of room ) I hope that you are on the road to healing and that you are all having positive thoughts and good moments that will turn into good hours, and into good days.