BW hun - i know it's hard, but please don't think of ways that you may have been responsible for this happening. in most cases, there simply isn't an explantation, and blaming yourself isn't going to change that. you have done everything asked of you through this journey and this is a very unfortunate, tragic ending - but you are not responsible. you have lost a very big part of you, and you have every right to grieve and you won't be able to do that if you're looking at ways to blame yourself.

the coming weeks, and possibly months, are going to be hard, as far too many of us here on BB can tell you. please remember, we're here for you - through the bad days, the better days, and the downright horrific ones that we all have. my heart is aching that yet another lovely lady has had to learn this horrible pain - please call on us at any time you need additional support throughout this journey hun

take care hun - sending my love to you and DH again - rest up, grieve openly and honestly, and take each day one hour at a time.

love

BG and Mr B