Doza I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter Emily. You are in the early raw stages of grieving and you just need to take one day at a time. Tomorrow will be an extremely hard day and you will be in my thoughts.

I lost my son Cooper last November at 37 weeks from a cord accident. I was told that it is very rare but this doesn't make it easier to understand how it happened and accept it. It is a hard decision of when to try again. Obviously you need the time to grieve but for me nearly a year on I am still grieving. I believe you will always grieve and no-one can tell you when the right time is to TTC. It is a personal decision and for me it was straight away because of my fertility problems. By trying again soon you are not replacing Emily, you are just trying to replace the hole in your heart that she has left and hopefully one day fill your empty aching arms. It isn't an easy journey and as you will see from my sig I am pg again. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my Coops and fear of losing this bub too but with the wonderful support that I receive from the ladies here I am getting there..........day by day.

It is so unfair that this happens and it is so cruel. Surround yourself with supportive people.

When you feel ready join the girls in the TTC after Stillbirth thread. They are so wonderfully supportive and will help you through this painful and heartbreaking journey.

Take the time to grieve - cry, scream, be angry - whatever it is you need to do, but take care of yourself.

Luv & hugs
Lynn
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