Oh hun i was in tears readying your story. i too have angel babies but not from the same situation as you. It was a huge fear of mine while pregnant with my DD as i worked up til the end and the driving to work etc.

Any loss wether it be an early or late loss is very difficult to go through and no matter what the circumstances it is an emotional time.

Okay, I feel like I really need to rant, but I don't think I'm ready to "rant" it to my friends, workmates and partner, even though I really should be rather than here
I know its a difficult time but talking about it helps to work through your emotions and helps come to terms with what has happened. It will never be easy and will always hurt but opening up and releasing all that bottled up feelings will release alot of that pressure and guilt.

You said your self the accident wasnt your fault. Yes you were the driver but it wasnt like YOU hurt your baby on purpose.
But I was the one driving. I was the one who had control of the vehicle. I ruined the night, killed my daughter and ruined that portion of my life, as well as my fiancee's
Does your DF know this is how you feel??? what happened to your angel emily was an accident. I know it doesnt change how you feel but it was beyond your control. I really think you need to maybe get some councelling and work through this pain. its hard enough dealing with one loss let alone 2 close together.

With my losses i kept them to myself and never spoke about it til one day the anniversary of my 2nd came round and i lost it. i just couldnt cope. i broke down and no one knew why. After lots of talking with friends and family they helped me see that it wasnt anything i did and there was nothing i could do to change it. It sucks i know. its not fair and it hurts that suck an innocent soul has gone. A friend suggested we have a little "ceremony" type thing where i spoke about my lost babies we also released a white baloon into the sky as a symbol of my baby floating up to heaven. I think you need to find a way to forgive yourself and give yourself a chance to grieve for the loss of Emily and Halle. Please speak with someone. If your not ready for your friends and family PM me and i will help anyway i can. You should go through this in the dark hun.