Hi and welcome to BB. I'm so very sorry for your losses. Please don't blame yourself, it isn't your fault. I think it's a natural instinct for us to blame ourselves when things like this happen. I lost Emmanuel at 24wks and I too went through a stage of blaming myself. I'm so glad you found us here as you really need to talk about it and I know how hard it can be talking to family and friends as unless you've actually experienced a loss they just don't understand. I really feel your pain. Just take day by day, don't worry about tomorrow and grieve in any way you know how. Take care.

Regards,
Dianne