it helps a lot to know that there are other people going through the same thing i am. the only person i know that has lost a baby is the woman i work with and i cant even stand looking at her let alone talk to her. at work when we sit in the break room everyone avoids talking about her being pregnant. at times ill walk into a room and it will go silent and i know why they arent talking anymore and it makes me so mad but then at other times i walk into the room and other co workers are rubbing her belly and dont stop when they see me and that too makes me so mad. i cant go to my friends house because i cant look at her 1 year old without getting upset. i never wanted to get pregnant but now that im not thats all i think about which i know is the wrong way to deal but i cant help it. its been 3 months and im still down and depressed.