Hey Kelli07--Just wanted you to know that I know your pain, as I'm going through the same thing right now. I m/c on Mar. 5 (the day before my b-day). I was supposed to be 13 weeks, but baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks. I have a son that will be 7 in April and I work at his school as a noon aide at lunch time 3 days a week. Most of the kids had known I was pregnant, and would ask me daily if I knew what I was going to be having. All the teachers and parents would ask me daily how I was feeling. My son missed 3 days of school after my m/c because he was scared someone would ask him about "his baby" and he didn't want to cry. I had to send a note to his teacher asking her to explain what happened to the kids and to please not ask my son anything about it. I also sent a note to the office asking them to pass the word along to the other noon aides, so that I wouldn't have to. I still haven't seen them since they found out, and am dreading going back after Spring break. Up until last week there were still people that didn't know, asking me when I was due and how I was feeling. Those are the worst times, and so awkward because you know they feel bad for asking. Two of my son's fellow classmate's moms are also pregnant, and look to be due around the same time I was. I hate seeing their bellies getting bigger when mine's not! Sunday was hard for me because I was supposed to be 4 mo's along, and all I can think of is that I still WANT to be pregnant. I want to have morning sickness, and have my clothes get too tight, and my bigger boobs! I feel like it's not fair that I can't have those things. Then I feel like I'm being selfish...yet at the same time I can't keep all these thoughts out of my head!
Thanks for sharing your story. No matter what your age, married or not, this is the hardest thing to deal with. Don't let anyone make you feel like you shouldn't be feeling the way that you are. Nobody can put a time frame on getting over grief. I pray that you find peace and comfort, if not from your friends and family, then from us here at BB!