Bonniew, I am so sorry for your loss its so very cruel to lose a baby at all, let alone full term. Have your doctors being able to tell you why your son died? It won't take away the pain, but perhaps understanding what happened may help you come to terms with it. It's great that you were able to hold him, he truly know that you loved him. Look after yourself and don't be afraid to take more time off if you need it. Is there someone at work that you can speak to about how you are feeling and how it makes you feel with the way people are reacting? Perhaps they can have a chat to those that work close to you at work about how you feel. People generally don't know what to say when someone is grieving, I can relate. Take care of yourself.