Some people at work have been good but there is one lady who is just being cruel......she told me she understands how i feel because her dog had 6 dead puppies.....pffft really, and she will sit there and tell me how she is going to try for a baby in a few months and how she wants the baby clothes back that she gave me at the baby shower.

I didnt get to hold my baby either the nurse was trying to let me hold him but I didnt want to i was scared that i would hurt him because is skin was very soft....but now i wished i had.
I feel ok during the day its just when i go to bed i start to think about little things that make me upset, like when i brought in clothes for him in the hospital they didnt fit, he was 7 pounds which was a big shock i thought he was going to be tiny, and when i brought clothes for him to wear in his coffin i forgot to bring him socks so i get upset thinking he had cold little feet .