Hi Rachel,

Thankyou for your reply, it helped knowing someone read how i feel & wanted to respond, you & me grieve in similar ways i think, yes Roman is on my mind 24/7 hes my every waking thought, before sleep and when i wake up i think of him the most, some days it feels surreal that this has happened, and the nights events repeat over and over in my mind.

I'm also saddened that your family & friends didnt comment on Maddison's story & photos, just saying a little comment, helps, it really does, and it shows they care, even if they dont know what to say, just a im thinking of you, or thanks for sharing with me, is nice.

I think many people dont want to know that babies can die, and that this does happen, so they want to ignore it or not be part of it, it really is sad because there needs to be more awareness and more understanding, much more.

Yeah, people who dont comment, they are enjoying life, having fun, as i always read & see, and i wonder if they acknowledge anything that goes on around them that is not always happy, because it feels that they dont want to know about anything unless its happy, but people should be there for you in bad times too, not just when everything is going great

I've had my good day today, i got out with my boyfriend and did some much needed shopping and a nice lunch and a movie, so i felt good today, and feeling better, but i know theres going to be more lows, but thats how it goes...

xx Thanks again, many hugs