Thank you all for your support. We are slowly getting there, wherever 'there' is.
Still quite teary but starting to feel a bit more like myself.
I will be going back to work on Tuesday which will be a challenge but will help me to move on with life I think.
Murray and I have been talking about doing something nice to remember Vanilla by. At the moment I am thinking of a plain band with Vaniila engraved on it - something nice that I can wear everyday. Also putting together a little memory box with cards, BFP HPT, and a letter to our baby.
Bec- I am so so sorry for your loss and the pain you now feel. I know how it feels and it's awful. And it's the fact you can't just try again to have a baby- it's facing IVF and the uncertainty and limbo again. That is really tough, on top of grieving for baby Vanilla.
It gets easier bit by bit, but dont expect too much of yourself for quite a while. Dont beat yourself up for the way you feel or expect yourself to suddenly be big and strong, if you still feel really fragile. It's been months now since my last miscarriage and I still have bad days.
Doing something to remember your baby by is a great idea. DH and I lit a candle with each of our losses and said a few words as a goodbye. We did the same thing when a due date recently came up...I also write things down, which I find is a good way to vent, as is this site- it's helped me through.
I hope it doesnt take you too long to fall pregnant again and hope we have our forever babies soon
Emma xx
My heart breaks for you . Unfortunately some of us have the long and hard journey to have our little miracle child, and I wish you all the best in your TTC journey.
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