Dear Tildy, I am so very very sorry for the loss of your little baby.
I wish I could be there to hold your hand and give you lots of hugs, as i can only imagine that you will be needing them.
Allow yourself to grieve for the bub. Are there any support groups that you may be able to attend for families that have experienced late loss in your area? Sometimes finding solidarity with others that have had similar experiences can help in the healing process by knowing that you are not alone and that there are others experiencing similar emotions to your own.
I lost our little angel very early on, at 8 weeks, and because there was nothing 'tangible' to remember him (i had a feeling it was a boy), i bought a keepsake to remember and acknowledge his existence. i also put in there photos of all of us and a letter for him. I keep it in a box and anytime i go in and have a look.

I really hope that you get all the cuddles you need. Here on belly belly there is fantastic support and solidarity for all of us mummas...

Clare