hey all,
im just here as i came across this place when i was googling information.
well my story is on 20th october 2007 i went to get my 8 weeks ultrasound and i got the news that i didnt want to ever hear, my babies heart had stopped and i will no longer be a mummy. i was just in shock and i was trying to hold in my tears and not cry. my boyfirend was there with me when i got this ultrasound and he was so brave and then when the ultrasound lady walked out the room to ring my doctor to say i need to get to see her urgently i just couldnt keep it in and i just cried so much.
i then left to head to my doctor and i just couldnt stop crying and all i wanted was my mum and i couldnt get through to her so i had to ring my step dad and get him to find mum and then mum rang me and mum met me at my doctor and i just cried to my mum.
after seeing doctor i got told to go home and wait for the hospital to ring to tell me when i will be coming in to get my procedure done and i had to go in 7am the next morning.
in the meanitme i didnt sleep that night because i was too scared to incase i started to miscarry at home, which i didnt. i was just so scared i would and i would panic so much.
i then went to the hospital the next morning and i had my mum and my boyfriend by my side the whole time and i was just scared at the hospital i didnt know what to do or say, it was a very long day there and emtionally draining for us all.
since coming home i have had and still do get bad pains in my lower part of my tummy and i am still struggling to come to terms with what has happened. i am now to scared to try to have a bay again because i am scared the same thing will happen to me and i dont want to go through any of that again.
the hardest part has been i wne to the docotrs when i was about 1 week into my pregnancy and i didnt know. i had lots of bleeding and my local doctor told me i had a miscarriage and then 5 weeks later i was really sick with what we thought i had a visus but the doctor told me i was pregnant and i didnt believe him because of what i just got told so he done an ultrasound and i seen a heart beat and i was so happy then 2 weeks later at 8 weeks i get told my babies heart has stopped beating and im no longer going to be a mummy. so i have just felt so confused and so emotional about the whole thing.
im sick of people telling me to get over it, its not that easy. and all i want to to feel like i have someone to talk to. yes i do have my mum she is the best and we do talk about it but i just wish i could talk to my boyfirend about it all but he just doenst seem to be wanting to or anything.
i just dont know what to do and thats why i thought i would see if anyone can offer me any advice as it would greatly be appreciated.
thank you all for taking the time to read this and offering me any help.
take care and thanks again.
sorry for this been so long i didnt realise how much i typed, sorry.