Kristy Lee - firstly - big hugs - i'm so sorry for your loss

as the others have said - it is important to let yourself grieve - talk, cry, scream - do whatever it is you need to do to get by. this is only very recent, and no one would expect you to be feeling bright as a button and on top of the world again straight away. it's a bit of a cliche, but it does get easier as time passes. you just have to face each moment as it comes. there are so many ladies on BB who have, unfortunately, gone through a similar loss to your own so coming here to talk is always helpful. you WILL get through this. and one day you'll decide you want to try for another baby - but no one can dictate when that will be. it is something only you will know - and even then you'll feel a degree of fear and trepidation about being pregnant or losing another angel - but you'll know that yo're ready to take that step.

as for your partner - i don't believe that he doesn't care - it's just very different for them. having their partner pregnant is really just an idea - yeah, they get excited, but until much later in pregnancy, when they can feel bubs kick, they don't have the same physical connection that we have from the day we find out, so the grief they feel is very different. it's definitely a man thing to not express their emotions, and sometimes it comes across as not caring, but in a lot of cases it's that ingrained thing where they fell they need to be the protector, the source of strength - they have to be there to get you through and that is their number one priority at the time - my DH was like that, and it hurt like hell to think he didn't care, until he finally opened up to me months later when he knew that i had regained the strength to be able to be HIS rock and shoulder to cry on

this is a really hard time for you hun - be gentle to yourself - allow yourself to grieve

BG