Oh Meredith, I feel like I've been through your last two losses with you as I've followed your journey through various threads.

I have no clever answers or solutions but I just wanted to let you know that I understand your grief, anger, loneliness and desperation.

I've heard the "at least you can get pregnant" line too, like it's better to have said goodbye than not say hello at all. Having said that, I would do everything the same, knowing what the outcome would be, just to have my little boy for those 22wks.

Interesting what everyone is saying about gut instinct. Mine says there's nothing wrong me with and nothing with my little Hamish either. However, that's my gut, the rest of me inluding my head and my mouth is choosing to go the scared like crazy route.