I feel like a bit of a whining, wet blanket but I have no where or no one else to let out my ongoing frustration/sadness.
I feel like i really want o move forward but this pregnancy just won't let go of me (emotionally and pysically).
I took a couple of doses of misoprostol over weekend and all it brought was horrible pain, feeling really unwell and a small amt of bleeding. No placental tissue.
Should have been 12 weeks today. I had thought ahead to this week, thinking what a wonderful time of celebration we would be having. Instead, I had a scan today, not showing two lovely wriggling babies, just a chunk of stubborn placenta still happily sitting in there with a great blood supply! So, no celebrations.... booked for more surgery on friday. My FS is going to do hysterosopy so she can see it and hopefully just fish it out without doing much damage elsewhere.
Sonographer today was very nice, fortunately. Told me she had had retained product(though smaller amt) in same corner of her uterus and left it to clear on its own. It eventually did but took 3 MONTHS!! NO way I'm waiting that long to stop feeling pg or to try again.
I really wanted to be doing another cycle in Oct but defnitely not going to happen now.
I know I really do sound like a whinger, so sorry, but I just want things to work out "right" for a change. I'm tired of all the complications and anguish. Just need something to go my way, at least once.
Hopefully "my turn"is coming soon. Surely it has to?