xmuginsx. i know that feeling. The day after i miscarried i just needed to get out of the house so my partner and i took our dogs (afghan hounds) out for a walk. Not even 50m down the road, on of DH parents friends came out smoking.. She was pregnant too. I couldnt take it. Inside i was screaming out "why?!" why cant i have a baby and she can? I dont smoke, i dont drink, i dont do drugs and yet she who is smoking so uncaringly gets to have what will probably be a healthy baby?? but because of who i am, i just stood there and was polite. I dont understand how that happens, why cant i have a baby?

On another note, i have a strong feeling tomorrow will be a bad day for me. I would have been 19wks.. *sigh* i know i have to try and think of the positives on days like that but i just know its going to be hard