Curl - You poor thing. When I say that I know exactly how you feel, I mean it. I was in such a low, and would always mention to my DH that I can't go on anylonger. Now time has past, I now realise what that must have felt, for him to hear me say that. I would just sit in a corner or curl up and just cry, the pain just felt so unbearable I just couldn't handle it. I felt as tho every breath in me was a struggle and even now writing this brings tears to my eyes. All I wanted was to be with my angels, so I could touch them, smell them and just love them. What got me thru, was my DH and my boys. I knew that I couldn't put them thru any heartache. Thankfully the hospital had given me a counsellor for me to talk to, when I had lost my first, which even tho I could not stand to leave the house, I would speak to her, and she would listen, and not judge me and would not make me feel as tho I had no right to grieve. She made me feel normal, with how I was feeling. I needed that, as I didn't want my DH to feel any worse than what he already was. I needed to speak with someone who wasn't a family member or close friend. She helped me a great deal, she may not have known it, but just letting me talk and feel was what I needed.

One last thing I would like to mention to Specialk, Curl and Lizjessie. Please do not think you had done anything wrong for you to m/c. It really isn't. I know you may be feeling that it is, as all I did was blame myself for not being able to protect my angels and honestly that was the worst thing I could have done. You all need to know that you are not to blame, some things happen that are just out of our control. TC and hugs to you.