Five weeks ago, I posted that I had had a miscarriage. I was so sad at the time as it was my second miscarriage but wanted to feel positive that we could put it behind us and start to try for another baby.

It's now 5 weeks later and my body is conspiring to make it impossible for me to forgot and move on.

I had a D&C 5 weeks ago and the bleeding wouldn't stop. 3 weeks ago, I went for a scan and they found retained tissue. My obg decided that the risks of another D&C were too great and that we should wait it out. It is 3 weeks later and the bleeding is still continuing. So today I went for another scan and the retained products are still there ...and they seem to have gotten bigger (how can that be!).

So this afternoon, I am off to my doctor again. I just feel so sad and I really want the physical symptoms to be over so that I can think ahead. I'm so tired of this. I'm supposed to leave on Friday for a two week overseas trip and now who knows what will happen. I didn't want a second D&C but now I wish that I had had one.

I'm sure that everyone expects that I should be over this by now but how can I get over it?