hey

thanks for all your replies

i dont know really where to post this so i will just keep it in here.

we would of been 11 wks today going by measurement of bubba g, but going by my last period i would of been 12wks. i cant stop thinking about it.

dp's mother rang last night and dp asked why didnt they call or come for a visit to show some support, given that this is his first child and all. she told him that " it was just a miscarriage, wasnt like it was born or anything" WTF i cant believe she said that, it was clear that dp just wanted to here that they were sorry and all of that but instead she tells him that!!!!!!! stupid b*tch dp is so upset and cant believe it. i told him i want nothing to do with them ever again. You can take the p*ss out of me about anything but when you say things about my baby then thats it, this is one subject that i will not allow to be picked at and i wont forgive. i am a pretty easy going person not alot will get to me, but when it comes to my babies and ttc its one subject you just dont dare to make nasty comments about.

i still havent left the house since all of this happend, 14 days today and i am still to scared to leave the house. i can talk to people on the phone and get on the computer and everything is fine, but i dont want to leave my home just yet, i dont want to let people see me cry and i know right now if i went back to work or seen anyone at the shops and they asked me how i was going i would break down in tears. i am so angry at myself i dont want to cry anymore, i want to get back to work and be able to go down and get a loaf of bread instead of getting dp or my mum to do it for me. i can feel that each day i am getting better, but i just cant go down town yet. i feel like i am being silly but i really cant help it.