Hun, you are not a bad mommy. Bad mommies just does not care wheter her bubba cries.

Just to give you my "normal" experiance

I was walking around the kitchen table, 3am in the morning. It was HOT. I was in just my panties. In my arms were my one and a half month old "little angel" screaching her pretty little lungs out for the past four hours. I have not had any sleep in God only knows when. She did not want my breast. I was walk/dancing trying to get into a rythym that she would like so that she MIGHT go to sleep. And I thought ... what would happen if ... I droped her ... hard .... very hard .......

I felt so guilty half a sec after thinking that, that I went into the bedroom, placed her in my bed and just stepped back a while. I sat on the edge of the bed for a while, DH were patting her bottom and she dosed off. I still feel silly for thinking something like that, but I was not myself at that stage.

Get some sleep. Those ppl coming for visits, tell then you need a break and let them cuddle bubba for a while.

Goodluck, babe. Chin up. It does get better ... eventually!!