Jols, you know I've had similar thoughts, so I understand where you're coming from.

Hun, you CAN and WILL do it. I know you will. You'll have your lovely DH by your side, as well as a doula (great idea), you will be well-prepped, and most of all you will want it so badly. You know that sometimes things just can't go to plan, but if you've done everything in your power to have the birth you want and deserve, I think you will still feel satisfied.

You're making me excited, I can't wait for you to be pg!!!!!!

ETA Hun, did you ever get that pain checked out? I think it's worth it if you haven't, you know what I went through.