Just ask the midwife at your next appointment if there is any possibility of a caseload midwife for extreme anxiety. They might say no but then again they might agree.
Erm.... I don't *have* a next appointment... And I don't get to see the midwives at ANY appointment, here you have to see the ob for all appointments. They don't do it any other way.

Jessiebean; Congrats to you and thank you for the support. I have been interested in meditating and yoga for a long time, but never "get around" to doing it, or keeping anything going (the same reason I never bother to exercise I have no drive). I bought a pregnancy yoga book when I was pregnant the first time. I have never used it. I have been able to overcome most of my mental issues (severe depression, destructive and suicidal thoughts), but I feel a lot of doubt in getting past this. I know if I can't sort this out it will just end in disaster. At the moment, I just don't have the strength to fix it.