Hi Kat,
I read your story a few days ago and it's taken me a while to process it.
I think you did an amazing job and I can see it's easy to beat yourself up when things don't go the way you expect. I hope you are fully debriefed now and can be proud of giving birth.
My first reaction to your story was shock that you were in labour for so long. For some reason I thought early labours would be easy because obviously the baby wanted to come out, plus it would be smaller than a full-term baby. I think it's time I read up on labour now. I thought I had another two months before I had to worry about the details! So thank you for posting your story in all its gory and wonderful details.
I hope you are now having a lovely time with your lovely baby.