I'm still angry at my body that didn't do what it was supposed to do. I won't try for another vaginal birth because of it, I just can't trust that my body will get past 9cm. Twice it had the chance and twice it failed me. I keep going back & forth thinking that I really really should try a VBA2C but I just can't have the faith in my body to get past the hurdle of 10cm.......
Oh, just remembered the other thing -
Last weekend I was talking to my sister & she was saying how my cousin (had her baby 2 weeks after me) was back in her size 10 jeans walking round the ward about 3 hours after birth.... Yeah, three hours after birth I had seen my baby for about 2 minutes, she was all wrapped up & I could only just see her face. I had a cathetar, drip, 1/2 hourly obs due to blood loss & was numb from the chest down. I still grieve for that time that I was away from my baby.
Last edited by {sarah}; November 21st, 2008 at 01:52 PM.
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