Mmmmm I don't wanna answer that yet because sadly I think the answer is no. I know that the pressure from DH was pretty immense by then, the ob did the whole, "something can happen suddenly to the baby even if you have monitoring in the morning, by afternoon you might not know something has happened" which scared DH and me too. I felt a little selfish at times for pushing so hard for a VBAC you know - like it was something I shouldn't be doing, and god forbid if something went wrong I would never forgive myself.
Having said all that, I wonder lots of things like, I was 3cms dilated, I was having irregular contractions, stuff was happening, then on the other hand, he was BIG, he was never engaged and neither was Izzy even at 9cms, is my pelvis a bit "out", are my babies too big for me? etc.... I know all the we make babies the right size etc but you gotta wonder.
I also know even now 6 weeks on that I am still terribly sad and I know we won't go again. Getting there slowly though.
Last edited by Beach Mama; December 2nd, 2008 at 08:43 AM.
I know that the pressure from DH was pretty immense by then, the ob did the whole, "something can happen suddenly to the baby even if you have monitoring in the morning, by afternoon you might not know something has happened" which scared DH and me too. I felt a little selfish at times for pushing so hard for a VBAC you know - like it was something I shouldn't be doing, and god forbid if something went wrong I would never forgive myself.
Getting there slowly though.
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