I am very impressed with this thread! I had 2 c-sections - one in 1990 and one in 1992. I am pregnant and facing my 3rd. The grief over the first 2 was profound at times and took a couple of years to heal. I am not afraid of having another and I think I can hear in other posts the sense of anxiety about VBACs. It is facing something completely unknown! I have never experienced labour and i dont trust my body!!
Thankyou all for your honesty by the way - this is a hard topic and needs airing.

I had a prem labour scare on Saturday after the scorching heat and am confined to bed. It was the first time i had experienced strong and regular contractions. I started wondering if I could actually deliver a baby naturally - reason for first cs was 9lb baby in footling breech stuck under ribcage (like previous post), 2nd cs was due to prem rupture of membranes but no progress and cephalopelvic disproportion. So I thought "If she was small enough maybe I could do it". But then all the doubt and fear overwhelms and I think "stick with what you know".
One thing that helped me years ago was being the support person for a 16 year old girl who had a protracted and difficult labour and dleivered a 9lb 5oz baby. I was with her in the pain for 36 hours and I didn't feel so gushy about labour after that.