Good luck, the psychological battle is much harder than the physical one, if you can get into a caseload program or something that offers continuity of care, so that you have the same midwife all the way through that makes the world of difference, not knowing who you will get on the day you go into labour, what their views will be, and allowing yourself to be subjected to the silly rules like not labouring for more than @@@ hours (arbitrary depending on the hospital and ob, but generally between 6 - 9 hours) not going over 39 weeks, big baby, needing constant monitoring, for are all obstetric myths and not grounded in any actual medical reality, I still challenge obs to give me a single reference to support any of these, and have never managed to get one who could give me a decent answer. With my 4th baby (1st and 2nd were emergency cs, 3rd natural in caseload at sunshine, 4th homebirth with midwife) my midwife checked his heartrate with a handheld doppler in between every second or third contraction, as it is the heartrate in between that counts, it goes haywire during contractions and that is a normal reaction to being squished and squeezed and born, .....
anyway, having a single and constant caregiver makes all the difference, then even a CS is in your control, and the midwife will be there to support you and make sure you can hold your baby straight away!
Knowledge and looking within, your body is amazing. I know, I birthed a 10 pounder with the 3rd, and then a posterior baby who came out brow presentation with the 4th, no probs with scar, and no probs at all. I couldn't have done that without my midwife though, I would have been worn down, scared, and given in to further CS, oh, and my muscles were separated after the first, and that was not relevant at all, it just means that you might carry forward, it has no bearing on labour or birth at all, PM me if you like, and good luck!!
Kate