Oh wow JoyMama - that was NOT a joyful c/s by reading it. I feel the pain just through reading your words. First off I want to send you an enormous Second, unfortunately, if that was my previous surgical record, I would be heading for a planned c/s. But I am a nurse, not a midwife, and I am not an obstetrician either. So not claiming expertise! It's definitely worth speaking with the obs you mentioned, I know Euan Wallace is pro-VBAC (quite high in RANZCOG too I think), and he deals with high risk births. He'll give you an expert opinion for sure.

You know absolutely (having two kids via c/s), that no matter how they come out, you cannot possibly love them any more than you do. I hope that if it turns out you cannot try another VBAC, or choose not to, or have another emerg c/s, that you can come to terms with all of it and know that you did everything possible for your natural delivery.

Sending you lots of love and babydust. Big again - I hope you find a great Ob who you can trust to provide you with the information. That relationship is key I reckon.