How did you feel about having a c/s?

[Sterla]

SJ - I'm glad I'm not alone in feeling that way. It's something that is hard to be honest about. There should really be more talk about it.

[STARRYSKY]

was the same with me, I was lucky enough to get ds to take with me to recovery, bf while in there, but there was no "bond".
I pretty much forced myself to attach to him, I was very stubborn with the mws and nurses, lifting him up myself and trying to keep him with me as much as possible, even though i was told that i would suffocate him
3 days in at around 4 am i looked at my baby and SAW my baby iykwim. cue lots of mummy guilt and tears (how on earth could i doubt my love for this creature???)
Even through all the pain i was in, i tried to do all i could for him myself, otherwise i dont think I would have believed he was mine. the whole experience was surreal enough as it was.

I never once even entertained the thought that i may end up having a cesarean birth ()
so having one was a huge shock for me, I could have quite easily slipped into depression if not for the wonderful support on here leading me to reach out to others in RL who have had the same thing.
I still feel like not many understand how I feel or why I feel this way, I am now scared that if i get pg again i may have to go thru all that again, its not what i want, but a huge part of me is scared silly about giving birth vaginally now, is that normal?
so 6 months on I think i am getting better, physically i am healed but emotionally and mentally, well, im not quite there yet.

[Sterla]

I still feel like not many understand how I feel or why I feel this way, I am now scared that if i get pg again i may have to go thru all that again, its not what i want, but a huge part of me is scared silly about giving birth vaginally now, is that normal?

I feel exactly the same way. I'm definitely having more kids, and I really want to have a natural birth. On one side I'm worried and scared that I won't be able to have a VBAC, but on the other side I'm pretty scared of having a vaginal birth. I think I now doubt my body's ability to give birth, because I never got a proper chance to try before I was rushed to the ER for the emergency c/s.