this week has gone so fast, had to take bilby to two diff GP's on two diff days, been driving around looking at rentals from the outside, i've had time at night but no privacy, so i can do Facebook then (surface stuff), but not the "real stuff" - like replying to this thread. (which has been on my mind alot).

yes Vicki, i DO feel the love, i am overwhelmed by the kind offers, so overwhelmed i don't even know how to reply to them - i think i need to talk it over with a Mod, not sure who they are, or which one i'm meant to contact (in this area). BB members certainly do have the biggest hearts, the kind words, the concern, the offers, it's so incredibly kind - and supportive. Makes me feel less alone about all of this.

i've been madly doing craft at night, it's become my new "therapy" for keeping sane. I have to do something "neutral and safe" at night, so if i'm checked up on, i'm doing something legit - e.g craft. i would rather be looking up real estate websites and belly belly, but it's too hard with him home (at night) to do that. i work on a destop computer, his computer is half a metre away (tiny room, two big desks, two computers).

it's Friday now, and STILL, bilby's dad has not questioned me on WHY i have done the "separated but living under same roof" form. I guess he must suspect how hard it will be for me and bilby to find anywhere to live - and he's right - i AM finding it very difficult.

I've asked for help at many places, they give me numbers to ring, some don't exist anymore, some i don't fit the criteria, most just tell me to ring the places i've already rung. i feel like i'm going around in circles.

i now have a bag in the boot of my car, with the bare essentials, if we have to suddenly go. Including the important documents folder.

feeling very scattered, so this post must sound all over the place, the few times in last few days i've come into this room to reply, needing to concentrate, then bilby "i need you mum" - i never thought i would get to reply, but she's at CC today, so i did finally get to reply - sorry for delay - must seem very rude, but was not intentional.