Fanks ladies, just reading makes me feel better and determined to keep trying - baby steps I guess. Worse thing is that DH is going OS for 2 weeks next week. Not only is this the longest we have been apart for 11 years and I will miss him terribly but if I am home alone I don't cook because I can't be bothered cooking for just one person. Maybe I will make up a batch of healthy meals to freeze or something over the weekend. Vege lasagna or something will see me through. MIL came over and took Izzy for a long walk today and instead of going with her I stayed home and did housework - I should have gone too...arggh!