I only have one thing to say.. Without knowing the situation, you are WAY too emotionally invested in the exact current circumstances. If you can, get away, even for the day, go out with a girlfriend, friend, your partner even (banning talk of current circumstances) I just want to breathe with you and tell you it'll be okay. Because it will. Can you go to therapy and do a big debrief? One session won't solve anything but it sure as hell makes me feel better for the week.