Thanks everyone. I do feel a bit better today, am going to call my mum later and just tell her what I want to do for the day, hopefully she will be okay with that. I think they forget that this is the first Mother's Day where I am supposed to actually BE a real mother not just a step mum
feeling a bit stupid for the rant, but that heavy feeling is still there, so I know I'm not totally 'right' at the moment.

Also it is possible that I have some extra medication running around in me which is messing with my emotions .... But I am keeping that quiet...

Katters I do have one of my regular appointments with my psychologist booked for next Friday, which will be good. That's what I wanted DH to do, just tell me it will be okay and we will work it out. It was my Facebook status last night too... "Just breathe, apparently its good for you" But I had to tell him that's what I wanted, and its not the same when you tell people to tell you what you need... So thanks for breathing with me.

Gosh I wish my brain would turn off, not sure i can accept that is okay to be selfish, although I would be totally say thing all those things to my own clients... Sometimes I really feel like a hypocrite.

did a guided meditation before bed, which helped me tune out. Am going to try and do that every night to help at the moment,as I suspect things will be a bit all over the place for a while.

Deep breath.... It's a beautiful day in Melbourne and its my day off work, so I have opened the house and am going to get some vitamin d in me