... Lara this is gonna come from an odd angle but i will try put it best i can without it sounding insane ....

I have thought of what would it truely be like to be laying on my death bed, my very last days or moments on this planet breathing and how i would want people to treat me whom are all coming to see me & imagine they would be at their highest level of kindness & compassionate towards me ... and RIGHT THERE i think that's the level of compassion i would give others myself whilst I AM here on this planet during my lifetime & nothing else less than i would want for myself at those last few moments in my life

Yes, the emotion rips into your heart but it makes you really, really FEEL deep down and feel at the deepest level that YOU CAN for that compassion to become stronger !!!