I think that no matter how much support you receive, until you are at peace with your own decisions it will always be an issue.

For example, my first child was stillborn. I have a clotting disorder that *shouldn't* cause a problem. Gynae and miscarriage specialist said to treat when pregnant. FS said not to. I believed FS and she died. Was the non-treatment the reason Did I receive support - yes. Did it help - some days, but mostly no. I made a decision and she died. I have to live with that.

We all have to make difficult choices. It is whether we personally accept the decisions we make that matters. You have made the right decisions for you and your family. There is no poor decision making - just acceptance of the choices we make out of love and the best intentions