It's all very well to say everyone has to take responsibility for their choices - and of course its true. But sometimes when we most need to believe in our choices we are lacking confidence in ourselves. That's when it can be hard to even see the way through our situation, even though in hindsight, when things are clearer, it might appear that the right choice was obvious. So maybe if people had said different things to you at the time, you might have felt different. But maybe not.
I think that no matter how much support you receive, until you are at peace with your own decisions it will always be an issue.
:yeahthat:
All you can do is take the situation as a whole and do your best to take care of yourself and your babies. That's what you are doing, and that's what you've been doing all along, you're just learning as you go.