Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception - April 2008

[Marsha]

hyiiiii all
Bailey & BB73
saph204

12 eggs, 12 matured HOWEVER ONLY 9 fertilised
ET schedue on sat(3 days after OPU), is it bcos they're not so good dat e transfer cant be done tom, friday btw, wat make a good quality embies
dis is dampening my spirit

[Bailey2000]

Hi all,

Hope you are all enjoying the beginning of the long weekend. I'm going to vent now that I've found the right thread, if you don't mind.

Yesterday I had my transfer, 2 embryo's but only grade 3 quality. The Dr. and the scientist were both pessimistic, very somber looks, soothing voices, and they started talking about the next round already (the Dr. said that he would not give me such high hormone doses next time...). This is my first IVF cycle and I'm devastated. I am so tempted to grab that bottle of red wine on the kitchen bench. What's the point in me waiting if the Dr. and scientist believe that this is not going to work? They were very keen to put two back in as well, obviously because they didn't hold much hope. Being dosed up on these drugs, now Crinone, my breasts sore, I just want to purge my system of all the drugs and start again in a month or two. My husband had a vasectomy more than 20 years ago so his sperm is in the freezer in Kent street and he is on the other side of the world, living in and working from Spain. My dog is stuck in Switzerland as we moved there for my husband's job for a while. We are keeping the dog in Switzerland and we were planning for me to join both DH and dog in Spain next month. Now that is on the back burner and I'm not sure when I'll see my dog (it's been five months already) nor DH. I'm so upset today and feel very alone. What's more, I'm in temporary furnished accommodation and ended the lease early as I thought I would be leaving. Now I'm not so I have to find somewhere else by the 1st May. The instability is getting me down too, the ongoing changes, and of course, IVF.

I have obviously been labouring (pardon the pun) under a gross misapprehension about how this might come easier to me given I'm apparently 'normal' and come from a long line of good, stable breeders.

I'm studying law as well and I can't be bothered focussing on my studies right now. I'm lying in bed (thank goodness it's raining, it suits my mood), I don't feel like going anywhere. I think this is the closest to depression I've ever felt, although I'm sure it's not clinical depression. I need to get my mind in a better frame, start thinking about the positives in life, as there are so many. This has really been quite a reality check for me though as I thought I would just coast through this. I'd say I was borderline arrogant. Im pretty angry too, at myself. I'm frustrated, I can't do the exercise I usually do. And I'm not as tough as I thought. I have a girlfriend who has been through this 15 times and still no success.

Anyway, rant over for now. BTW I'm 38 so I'm worried about age too.

Well my fellow TTCer's, have a nice weekend, thanks for 'listening'.

Cheers
B

[tiggerlinda]

Hello Ladies I can't catch up!

Bailey I just want to say grade 3 bubs do take so hang in there with every positive might and hope you have hun you are still in the running.


Me - Scan Yday showed a cyst need to go back Mon hoping it will go away!

[scooby]

Hi girls
just a quickie
TL: hope that cyst goes away and you can get on those stims soon!!!
Bailey Welcome to BB, big big hugs to you, it must be so difficult not having DH to give you cuddles and support and i just know how lost i would be without doggy cuddles. Like TL said you just never know, prove all those doc wrong!!!! You must be so strong to be going through all this on your own and kinda hanging in limbo, but just keep thinking that it will be worth it and come on and chat to us girls anytime you need. My little trick is get some really girlie dvd's and have a good cry ( i know im abit tragic). Anyhoo stay positive and send lots of love and sticky vibes to those lovely litlle embies who are snuggling up and getting comfy and remember were here

[Marsha]

Bailey dear, u're not alone.

my et reschedue, fm sat morning to friday afternoon. Good thing? i really dont know.
The nurse jus refused to elaborate.

arrived in e ctr way before schedued tym. den came e father of e quad fm wed delivery.
showing e nurses e footage of e delivery.

my doc came............
12 eggs, 9 fertilised ONLY 3 multiply
1 grade 2
2 grade between 2 n 3
doc jus told us ......

does any1 knows wat r e chances of e differing embies grades???

at home. Time will surely crawl by

[plc1805]

Marsha sweet - u have my prayers - I wish u all the best for a successful result

Aaaawwww Bailie - that's cr*p having ur family split up anyway let alone while ur going thru this HUGE matter when people who have heaps of friends and family around them still crumble. Know that what ur going thru is rough and it would be kind of u to let urself feel what u need to feel. Take care sweet and I wish u added strength, courage and motivation to get thru this as well as everyday life. Huge !!!

TL - to quote Shakespeare with a difference - "Out damned cyst!!" I pray it goes for u so that life can be remotely less complicated for u!!

Hi everyone - my thoughts, prayers and positive vibes r with u all.

[tiggerlinda]

Marsha - Payers are with you sweet and
PCl - well done and I agree!

To Everyone and bluedust:

Me: Not to worried about cyst I can feel a PG energy around me so I hope I am right

Just a note to remember. AC is great but sometimes we get too much knowledge a strong baby will make it no matter thier grade or there trasnfer day. As my FS once said to me sometimes it is harder knowing all the info and the best thing to fous on is helping nature. (Hope that makes sense)

[sonya1]

hi girls!!!

well AF came lunch time yesterday right on time yay. so today day 1 and tomorrow morning i have BT to see when i start puregon. hopefully start tomorrow night.

oh - and because of my silly abbreviations i have been misunderstood. i was sniffing 2 doses of syneral morning and night ( hence AM and PM) not at 2am or 2pm. wont take short cuts anymore, im a bit confusing... ha ha

take care with all your embie growth, sniffing and babies on board!!!

[tiggerlinda]

Sonya congrats and good luck