LTTTC Two Week Wait - Dec to Jan

[Moonflower]

Good morning ladies! (Well, it was morning when I started this post!)

FGS, you are too cute. I have a plan for you to stop feeling so lost. Go back to where I first jumped into the tww, followed closely by MC. We were feeling all those feelings too! We can serve as a warning to you! I especially did not want to get excited. But at the same time, I did because this was all new to me. I actually had fertilised eggs which is more than I’ve ever had! Plus I felt that after all I’d been through, I deserved to get a bit excited. Still, I couldn’t do it. My fear took care of that. By the end of my first day, I didn’t think I would make it even to the end of the first week. But look! I’m still here. And I’m actually in better shape than I was at the beginning. I’ve got family praying for me and I’m praying for you, MC and your embies.

I had the sorest BBs too. And the cramping. But latter stopped a few days ago (like you, I worried about why it is so) and two nights ago, I was able to take my bra off without any pain. Even DH remarked last night that I didn’t make pained noises getting into bed! I’m not beyond wondering if the cessation of all my symptoms is a bad thing. It’s just that I know I can’t (and let’s face don’t really want to) make them come back. It just is. And that’s the worst of it sweetpea. What you can do is call on me (and I’m sure MC and anybody else) and rant and rave and cry and moan and be joyful and happy and everything that you’re feeling. Because we know and we can do this:

My only advice (if I may) is to listen to MC. Try your very best (and it’s damn hard) not to get down. Those rotten pessaries make you feel even worse. It really is hard to pull yourself out. But we’ll be here to help you. You’re already a couple of days down. Only 11 more big sleeps! Leave the pant pooping to your newborn baby when he/she arrives!

MC, CONGRATULATIONS to you and your DH! How does it feel to be married a whole year? I hope you both have a wonderful, relaxing, laughter and love filled day! I am sure it will be now that you have both unshackled all your tension. What wondrous release!

You say the sweetest things, btw, MC. I think we, all of us, deserve for our cycles to work. We’re keen to be good mummies as well as wives and we’ve gone through so much, haven’t we? For me, even having to actually admit that I had to have scientific help was a huge emotional hurdle and then to actually do it…. Well, I’m sure you are no different.

It is funny that you say that you “just know”. I’ve said to people, that I “just know” that I can’t have kids. They look at me like “Whatever you nutbag. You can’t ‘just know’.” But we feel it, don’t we? Down in the core of our being. But let me tell you this: It ain’t over till the fat lady sings. And MC, I haven’t even begun clearing my throat yet!! (You can’t see me, but I’m overweight.) So I know that you just know lady. But I also want, so very much, for you to prove yourself wrong.

FGS, are you writing all this down? Don’t make me come back to you in a week and copy and paste this reply!!

AFM, I have two more big sleeps till the dreaded BT. I am nervous, the teensiest bit excited and a little scared too. I woke up at 04:30 this morning, I’m sure because I’m thinking about this test. Ugh! As I said to my sil yesterday, this is the one test I don’t want to fail!

Hope you ladies are having a good day today.

MF x